be misunderstood by any one - - I care more for my own view of the situation than of any one else's and I feel that I did right - I should have felt uncomfortable if I had gone in with them, and as it is I feel right - so what's the difference [previous four words struck through] , feel that my own conscience is clear, that to this date in Alaska I'v done only what an honest man ought to do. what I'v lost in money, and I'v lost much of that, I'v gained in the satisfaction that I'v done right. I could not satisfy myself to go in with Barnette after the Anderson jury fixing case.